I’ve went back to my old account (stupid, I know). But I switched the usernames. So now this one (originally strawberryskeletons) is now jeiike, and vice versa. :) I’m sure whoever has this account was a follower of my previous one unless unfollowed!
People are extremely realistic nowadays, which isn’t too bad… But that isn’t too good either. Lately, realistic means pessimistic, and that saddens me.
I’m just being realistic, they’ll say. But the truth is, no one knows the reality of situations or things. No one knows where things are going - whether something is going to end happily or not.
Movies like 500 Days of Summer or Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind are beautiful movies. They really are! However, it’s the same with all the Disney princess movies where they all have happy endings. Each viewpoint is beautiful in its own way.
But which do people follow more? The more depressing mood Because that’s “”reality”“.
It’s not wrong to keep reality in mind. However, it’s unhealthy to believe that things are impossible, that every friendship/relationship will only fail you in the end. This generation and generations below my own have this sudden mindset where if something is wrong, it can’t be fixed. That it MUST be broken off without reason.
i.e. “My girlfriend’s too clingy so I’m breaking up with her.” “My best friend spoke about me so I’m never talking to him ever again.”
While these reasons in the examples may be good reasons to leave, people also don’t see that everyone nowadays doesn’t want to sit and talk things out in a calm matter. No one wants to fix things. Everyone tries to give the right advice but out of selfish reasons, not because it’s the right thing to do.
but when I see you sleep, whether it’s on webcam or on my chest, I smile because you are mine, and I am yours. And I think about how I would fight the world, take a bullet and just about anything to save you. Is this really love when you feel like that? Just a mere glance.. Or a thorough look at how peaceful your eyes seem while you’re asleep.. And thoughts like that happen. Is that love? It feels like it.
I began 2012 with finding myself, honestly confused and lost. It then turned out to be I ended the year with a sense of hope and hard-hitting lessons that will be stuck with me forever and a day.
This year is going to be one of the busiest years of my life. I’m going into 2nd and 3rd semester of Nursing school, applying for internships or medical jobs in the summer (maybe Certified Nursing assistant?). I’ll be studying early in the morning every single day and ending class at 11:30pm so going home at around 12-12:30am. On top of that, I’m also going to be working at my current part-time job only once a day, but that’s A LOT of time taken out for a nursing student like me, lol.
But what I realized from both last year and these past few days of the new year is that I need to be the best person I can be. I can’t do this for my family or my boyfriend but for myself and God.
So I’m grabbing onto opportunities that come to me, especially for this winter break! Tomorrow, I’m going snowboarding and meeting new people! I’d also like to mention the accomplishments an lessons I’ve done within the past few months:
- Standing up to my parents, telling them that I’m growing up and need to do certain things on my own (BIG DEAL. OMG)
-Never, ever giving up on love despite what EVERYONE said about break ups. Note: Just because previous relationship experiences of others have not worked, that does not mean that my relationship should be brought down as well!!!
-TRUST IN GOD, TRUST IN GOD, TRUST IN GOD. OH JUST TRUST IN GOD. THAT’S ALL IT TAKES.
-Being able to not buy things for my own pleasure but for others instead (I haven’t bought clothes for myself in a long time now :D)
-PASSING NURSING 110 with a big smile and awesome, hardworking, goodhearted people! On to the next sem!
-Realizing that drinking excessively and getting high is fun for a few present minutes or hours but will only make you look absolutely stupid in the future
-NEVER have the mindset “I will talk to him only if he talks to me first”. DO WHATEVER THE HECK YOU WANT because you will only get anxious and hurt! And once that mindset is gone, you will gain self control on your own.
-Patience and strength from God are the best things to ever ask for when you’re going through struggles.
-Although some people seem like absolute psychos, these people are going through their own story, may just be bitter and set on certain opinions for life. Some people are SCARED of change and will never be able to see the good side of situations!
-FINALLY DRIVING! Let your FAITH be bigger than your fear!! (Hebrews 13:6)
-Having close, best friends does NOT mean that you have to go to them for advice or tell them everything going on in your life because they are only human and can only tell you an outsider view!
-There are friends that you can just NEVER get rid of! That still doesn’t mean that you have to get close to them or rather… closer
-People will turn into monsters once you hurt them, but never take that to heart! They are vulnerable, lost and confused because you (someone they trusted) hurt them first! APOLOGIZE. Set peace between you two, and things will surely fall into place.
-Letting go when someone needs it is the best possible way to love someone. And someday, that person will come back on his or her own time.
I wholeheartedly believe in you and your sincerity. And although most would not concur to your decisions, I deeply admire you for them. You do what no one else can really do, and that, sir, is to love unconditionally. To forgive the most unforgivable. To care for those who hurt you. And for once, I’m quite petrified of your disappearance. But I beg of you: Don’t leave me. Even if I say that it should be over, don’t you dare take a step away from me. Be still for my belief that God has appointed you to mold me into someone new, better and beautiful. I know it. I believe it. Why else would you be here? But tell me. Where did you get your heart? I’ve asked myself, “What makes you so great to possess something with such rare quality?”
But now I see that you’ve trained it well. You don’t deceive it, you don’t leave it behind nor do you ever let someone else take it away from you. So that just makes me an unworthy individual for your heart.
So if I can’t steal it, may I just call you mine forever? Because I need you. I need you to love me and take care of me because there’s simply no one who can change me,